Your shaktipat initiation experience depends on your own preparedness, your own karma, and the degree to which you are able to surrender. Of these three, your surrender is the most important.
For anyone thinking of taking shaktipat diksha, there are two subjects to consider: yourself, and the one giving diksha (initiation). The subject of yourself concerns your own preparedness. The subject of the teacher giving initiation concerns that person’s level as a teacher. Not all gurus can give shaktipat. Of those who can, there is the question of where they are in their own sadhana, or whether they are beyond sadhana altogether.
The Guru Gita tells us that there are seven kinds of teachers. The highest of these is the paramguru. The paramguru is beyond sadhana. Someone who has completed sadhana has all the superhuman powers, has cheated death and is an immortal. Shaktipat diksha from such a guru can indeed give you direct experience. But even if you could find a genuine paramguru, which is unlikely, a paramguru will not give you initiation just because you ask for it.
To receive shaktipat diksha from a paramguru, you would have to have undergone a good deal of sadhana yourself to be prepared for diksha from such a one. This involves more time than most Westerners are willing to give. We want everything yesterday. We want it now, and we don’t want to have to give or to do anything to get it. This is just not going to happen with a paramguru. This is not because the paramguru doesn’t want you to become initiated. It is for your own protection. You must be very ready for diksha from a paramguru. What would happen if you weren’t? Your nervous system would not be able to handle it any more that your body would be able to handle getting plugged into an electrical power station.
With a guru who is not a paramguru, you may also have direct experience, but it is beyond the guru’s control to determine this, or to determine what you experience during diksha at all, as experiences will vary from person to person.
Through the many communications I have had from people who have taken, or were about to take, shaktipat diksha, I have come to realize that there is a trend in what people expect from this initiation. There is a general assumption that shaktipat will give a person samadhi, full enlightenment, self-realization, vision of God, or at the very least, that their kundalini will instantly awaken. But this is not necessarily so.
I am not a paramguru, so I cannot predict what will happen for you during your initiation. I can only give you examples of what I have known other initiates to have experienced. Whether or not you have any of these experiences, or have entirely different experiences, is between you and Shakti. What you experience with diksha from Durga Ma will depend on your own readiness, your own karma, and the degree of your surrender.
In the past I have not talked much about this. I didn’t want anything I said to cause anyone to wonder if what happened during their initiation was because of something they had heard from me; I didn’t want them to doubt their experiences. Now I feel that more knowledge may actually increase one’s surrender. The greater the surrender, the greater the odds for experiencing the workings of shakti or having a direct experience of God or Self.
Your surrender will automatically increase to the degree that you are
willing to let go of all preconceived ideas and expectations,
and accept what does or doesn’t happen
as shakti working in your best interest at that time.
As you continue with the practice of Surrrender Meditation,
shakti will continue to bring you closer to the goal.
You can read about some of the experiences of initiates here. On the side menu of this page are more articles about shaktipat and a link for applying for shaktipat with Durga Ma, if you are so inclined.
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