Kundalini Truth & Consequence – Part Two

I won’t tell you it is a good idea to awaken Kundalini. Nor would I say it’s a bad idea. It isn’t about good or bad, right or wrong, better or worse. It is a personal matter of choice and knowing what you want.

Being forewarned is being forearmed.

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If you read part one of this post and listened to Durga Ma’s talk on kundalini, you might be intrigued to find out there’s a lot more to consider and to understand if we are tempting to awaken her (kundalini).

With all of the front page hype about “expanding your field of loving-awareness” as the motivation for moving forward, it feels prudent to  to include some more information.

Durga Ma was passionate about empowering people to make conscious decisions based on knowledge, and I am passionate about continuing this aspect of her legacy. She was (in my humble opinion) unrivaled in her experience and understanding about the process of spiritual development, and ability to articulate and guide one on the path. That is not to say she is alone in this category, but she is absolutely trustworthy according to my personal experience which continues today.

At the end of the day, Kundalini has one job – to evolve you. All of you, literally. She is not interested in if you feel good, are looking for a soul-mate, or seeking personal development so you can fulfill your worldly desires. She is for the one who seeks Liberation, or for the fettering of fools. This is a common warning Durga Ma freely distributed to any seeker who uttered the “k” word.

You may not agree or even like what I have to say, and I welcome it. I’m not sharing Durga Ma’s work with the intention of discouraging anyone, but sharing what she shared with me… knowledge is power, and power can be advantageous or destructive.

There were many times over the years that I initially felt diametrically opposed to something Durga Ma would share or say… but I accepted it (not to say I liked it, or agreed with it). What happened as a result of being willing to accept her unconditionally, was that it allowed her wisdom to begin to work on me from the inside out.

Our journey to traverse the infinite landscape of spiritual awakening is most likely not going to happen over a 3 day weekend retreat. I also regret to inform you that it isn’t all going to be “cherry berry Ben.” While there may be no real control over the outcome, we must first begin with taking responsibility for the outcome, which is where it seems appropriate to get some real grounded knowledge on what it is we are seeking.

Durga Ma told me once that if anyone said they understood kundalini, that I should run. I have only my personal experience that is validated by her teachings and scripture, so I will leave with you the second part of her discussion on kundalini here. If you are considering or pursuing kundalini awakening, or even in the midst of it already,  I invite you to this engaging discussion. There is nothing but wisdom to be gained by taking the time to listen and enjoy the simplicity and directness of her teachings.

May your journey be blessed in every direction and may you receive the knowledge you need to make conscious choices that support what it is you truly want.

Listen to Durga Ma’s talk on Kundalini – Part Two here.

With Love,


P.S. There is an addendum I would like to add since this recording was nearly 30 years ago. At one point she mentions that her kundalini was not stationed in the head at the time she was taping this talk.

It was however, by all accounts firmly stationed and had transformed into maruti prior to her mahasamadhi in June, 2019. In the future I plan to share some of the information about this process from her account. However, I mention it at this time as a reminder to her students and initiates because a Guru can only take one as far as one has gone themselves, and I think it might bring great joy to us to be reminded of her completion of this sadhana when we feel or perceive any obstacle in our path.

Jaya Bhagavan (Victory to God)!


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The Dharma of Karma 2 – Personal Power

Have you ever heard the saying, “What goes around, comes around”?  That’s one way to understand karma

Dharma – Law. The established nature, character, peculiar condition or essential quality of anything.

Karma – Action. From, kri, meaning ‘to do’.  

The Dharma of Karma – The law of cause and effect: For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.

The word ‘karma’ simply means ‘action’, but the inevitable effect of action is that it will have a rebound of one kind or another. “For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.”

Karma – Action.  From kri, ‘to do.’

If we were to realize that thought is behind all of our actions, we would probably try to change some of what’s going to “come around” and change some of our actions by changing the thoughts that precede them.

Many modern-day teachings focus on positive thought, the idea being that thought manifests, and if your thoughts are in alignment with your aims, your aims will manifest. The movie The Secret supports this with the “law of attraction”. However, when taking up the practice of positive thinking, we would do well to keep in mind the old saying, “One man’s meat is another man’s poison.” Your own aims are positive for you, but what is positive for one person may be negative, or even neutral, for another.

The Law of Attraction and Aversion

If we are to be honest with ourselves, we have to realize that ‘positive’ translates as ‘attraction’, or ‘desire’, and ‘negative’ translates as ‘aversion’, or ‘negative desire’.  In other words, something is positive for us when it’s something we want or like, whereas something that is negative is something we don’t want or don’t like. So all this negative and positive business is all relative. And here lies another secret:

Life in this world, the mind included, is made up of opposites.  

Remember Noah’s ark? Noah had to keep pairs of opposites equally in tact in order to keep life in the world in tact. That the world and the mind are made up of opposites is not the secret. Sages have know this for eons. No, the biggest secret of all will always be the one we keep from ourselves. It is the thought that is opposite the positive one that we’re trying to cultivate, the thought that we shove under the rug, that is the Big Secret. What happens to that thought? Where does it go?

That opposite negative thought, the thing you don’t want or like, will go deeper into the mind and become stronger by hiding it from yourself. This happens not because you are strengthening the positive thought, but because you are suppressing the negative one, thereby giving energy and power to it.

You won’t notice that this is going on because you’ve hidden the negative thought and it no longer exists for you. But it is precisely because it is hidden that is gains so much power. The secret things in the mind are the most influential at a personal level for this reason, and this reason alone. You can only upstage negatives, you can’t make them go away—a negative is just the flip side of something. So it is better know what they are than to leave them so conveniently tucked away. Knowing about them, and giving them equal time, will quickly drain their power.

Seeing and acknowledging the negative flip side of a positive,
will cause the negative to weaken.

Just think about the word ‘secret’. Remember the movie, The Secretˆ? Weren’t you attracted to that title? We are all attracted to secrets of one kind or another—personal secrets, secret societies, secret conspiracies, secret loves, secret methods and techniques, secret initiations, etc. We love a good mystery. That we are drawn to these things is a phenomenon produced by our own propensity for keeping our own secrets, especially the secrets we keep from ourselves, secrets we don’t even know we have, or have forgotten, things that are sub (below) -conscious, suppressed.

So what do we do about this if we are to pursue positive thought in order to navigate life more smoothly and live our dreams?

Deflate the Power of the Negative

The first thing to know is that, once the opposite negative thought of the positive thought you wish to manifest is brought to equal consciousness, it looses its effectiveness and becomes powerless over you. Practice Mental Yoga and develop this skill.

Practice Conscious Choice

The second thing to know is that, once the opposite negative thought of the positive thought you wish to manifest is brought equally to consciousness, only then can you make a conscious choice between the two.

Without this piece, choices are influenced entirely by the mind (i.e., by that negative, hidden, secret thought), in which case, conscious choice isn’t really conscious, is it?—because you’ve left something in an unconscious, subconscious, place in your mind and you don’t have all the pieces.

You may believe that you have already made this choice, but if you did not bring the opposite negative thought equally to consciousness, it was not really a choice made by you, it was a choice made by your mind under the influence of attraction or aversion, and not really your choice at all. You have been had by your own mind.

Access Your Inherent Power

What is so amazing about this process of equal consciousness of opposite thoughts, is that you become more empowered by bringing these opposites to the surface—equal time, equal consideration—and choosing between them. By doing this, you will have made a conscious choice.

Conscious choice is the basis of your own inherent power—you’ve got it in spades—so all you have to do is access it. With familiarity concerning opposite thoughts and the application of conscious choice, you can do it.

1. Your own power is inherent.
2. The way to access it is through conscious choice.
3. Conscious choice requires self-honesty and equal awareness
of opposites.

Jaya Bhagavan (Victory to God!),
Durga Ma


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The Magic of Shaktipat, Part 3

Desire is a mental affirmation of lack.   

Prana gets suppressed when we try to get things to be the way we want them to be. It is one thing to have a desire and another thing to act on a desire, but even the intention to satisfy a desire suppresses prana. It works like this: We want something and our attention is on getting it to happen.  Where the attention goes, prana goes. So even the simple act of using the mind to work out the means of achieving its aim acts to control prana. When we finally take action to obtain the desired object, we reinforce this limitation on prana’s freedom and prana is not free but subject to our ‘will.’ This is the source of the teaching of the Ancient Masters to abandon desire if we wish to achieve liberation. When desires become powerless, prana moves freely and things happen automatically to this end. This, in fact, is how these desires are ultimately dethroned—by freeing the prana to ‘God’s Will.’

In spite of our attempt to control it, prana is able to maintain some degree of freedom in order to maintain life, but due to the limitations we place on it, its freedom is limited. Having been forced to act according to personal will power rather than her own innate and divine intelligence, interruptions in the flow of prana occur, and mental, physical and emotional well-being are affected. The prana itself is not what is imperfect or impure; we might say that the prana has impurities mixed in with it like an alloy in gold, or that there are obstacles in the path of the flow of prana.

Liberating the Life Energy

Shaktipat is responsible for freeing prana. This release of the life energy is called pranotthana, which means ‘strong prana,’ or ‘prana up.’ When prana is allowed to be free, she moves according to her own intelligence. Because of the inevitable impurities, distortions, obstacles and disorders associated with bodies, her release can create unusual phenomena.

Some examples of the pranotthana experiences are divine visions, spontaneous withdrawal of the senses (pratyahara), automatic movements of the body (kriyas or asanas), spontaneous dynamic breathing (pranayama), out of body experiences, sleep of a highly unusual quality (yoga nidra), emotional releases, dreams of unusual quality and continuity, and even samadhi.

I’ve seen conservative people hop across the floor like frogs, stiff people bend into pretzels, and reserved people cry like babies and laugh hysterically. Spontaneous healings occur, sometimes immediately, sometimes over a period of time. I’ve had people go into such deep states that I just had to let them be. Eventually they came back to normal consciousness—very, very slowly, sometimes taking as long as an hour.  Others have no experience at all during the initiation, but things unfold gradually as they continue the meditation.

Pranotthana is sometimes confused with the awakening of kundalini.  While it is the precursor to the awakening of kundalini, it is not the same thing. One might also experience pranotthana unknowingly, become frightened, and believe that there is something wrong. I have known people who have had their experiences diagnosed as the symptoms of fatal diseases and told that they had only a short time to live. Because their ‘problem’ began in meditation, they were advised to stop meditating. Upon learning that they were experiencing pranotthana, they continued their meditation and the symptoms went away. The doctors were astounded by their unexplained recovery.

I am not suggesting that you attribute everything to pranotthana and ignore symptoms of ill health—physical, mental or emotional. One cannot expect that symptoms are just dramatic pranotthana experiences and not seek the aid of a physician. I mention it to illustrate the remarkable power of prana. If prana had its way, there would be no death.

From Living the Mysteries, Copyright ©1999,
Durga Ma and Terry Anne Preston, Ph.D.

On the subject of desire, I would add … 

Desire indicates that you believe that you don’t have something you want. This belief acts as a reinforcement for keeping the very thing you want from coming to you, or going away—we sometimes have a desire that we don’t want to have; prana is suppressed by attempting to overcome this desire as well. 

I mentioned last time that we all have everything, and that the issue isn’t really the desire, but access. Achieving access is a matter of understanding and applying your inherent power (this is described in the Empowerment Meditation course). Regarding the resolution of desire as an obstacle to God-realization, you may want to reread this entry: Surrender & Non-Doership

The masters have told us to let go of desires not because it is ‘wrong’
to have desires, but because you already have it all
so there is really nothing to want.

Durga Ma

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